Thursday, January 06, 2005
I woke up like 3pm today....I know like "oh my goodness"! Well, last night I went to this club just to hangout with my close friends. I love them. It was freakin crowded on the dancefloor. But it wasnt that bad. I have seen packed before....seriously packed as in you cant move at all. Anyway, for me I feel dancing makes me a lil stress-free. Although sometimes there can be a few nice eye-candies around....hehz.
You know, being independent is a very important trait I learned. I mean you cannot always be with your friends and sometimes even though life's a mess you still have to pick yourself up with or without any help/warmth/comfort from your loved ones. Ultimately you yourself is in control of everything. Eg: I could escape this world by ending my life, but the question is am I willing to do so? Do I want to? Its easy to say but action speaks louder than words. I have heard a few of my friends talking about ending their life. I think they just say it "in the heat of the moment" or maybe they just feel really shitty. But then again, why die when God created Life? Life, the most precious gift (asides from Love). Just think about people who are dying because of accidents./illness. They want to fight to live on but yet some of us just want to give life away. That's completely not logical if you ask me. Hmm....or maybe unless you will feel happier if you are gone? Well, not that I havent thought about dying before, it certainly have crossed my mind when life gets shitty. But those are just small issues. Dont sweat the small stuff right?
I feel that people should show more appreciation towards your loved ones. Taking each other for granted. Hmm...that is a very common saying but yet people still dont practice it....or maybe we dont realise that we are doing so. We should make more effort to care and show love through actions. Sometimes people say "You know I care for you right." Then the other will say "But I dont see it. You dont show appreciation. Why do I feel like you care for others more?" Sometimes when someone says "Its okay." Is it really OKAY? Or are they just brushing their feelings aside and not mentioning how they really feel? Its really ironic when someone does not treat you well BUT yet you treat them like your good friend. And yet those friends who treat you like they care about you,love you, are there for you when you need them, you dont show much affection towards them. I too hope I have never taken anyone for granted. But I always make sure that I always let my love ones know how much I cherish them. Even if it's just by sending small msgs. My best friend and I know that even though we dont contact that often, we know we love each other and that she will always be in my heart.
For my friends.
"Once we met,then we were it,now grown up,memories still in my mind,forever you said,I smiled and hugged,you hugged and smiled,forever I said,enemies we will never be."
Okie enough of that stuff. My mind is constantly thinking about stuff like that. About life, the unknown, spiritual stuff etc....I find it really fascinating. I am gonna buy this book soon. Actually there are sOoo many books I wanna get. I wish I could buy the entire section of the metaphysical section of books at borders. Heck! In all the bookstores. I love reading them. So so interesting. I wonder what colour is my aura. That is something I really wanna know.
Black Or White
Black or white
Does it matter?
Living in a world of many colors
Do you hear what I say?
Black or white
What is wrong with my color?
Tears run down smoothly on my skin
I try to fit in
Black or white
Hush now please
For I could hear my heart cracking
When you insult me
Black or white
Pinching my sensitive skin
It won't change
And the color still remains
Black or white
Like beautiful swans we all are
Why can't they see that?
We have a heart too
Black or white
Yellow or brown
Lower your pride
And let love begin
A little simple poem I wrote. Just something to think about. Racism.
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