Somehow I feel that there is more to that. Somehow I feel you still feel. Maybe I just like to think. I just think that its strange. Why dont you want to receive something so open and lovely towards you? I think I dont know what I am talking about.
I Rachie am really tired and sleepy today. Typing now but gotta meet Adel later. 3D max is making me disappointed. I suck at lightings. Mr Roger wants me to hand in a better version of my interior on monday. Gotta do something like "Multi-Res" or something. I cant think now.
Shot the siemens film today. God Rach L can be so silly hahhaa and Oodha was saying how the reflector can be used as a sarong wrap. Hahaa thanks to my "fanners". I was really perpetually sweating till my thighs were sticky....hehz....its a good thing Laurence is patient withus girls. Sabby was complaining about her nice shoes and Adel was nice enough to exchange her less nice shoes (slippers) hahaa in that way Sabby's shoes wont get wet in the potted plants....since she had to go funny positions to film us. Gosh the weather was really killing us. Every inch we make, our bodies infuse sweat drops. Hehz....so glad to have came home to bathe and be clean.
I really hope the guy I am gonna see later will be able to act for my short film. Seriously, I need a male lead who can act drunk and stuff too. Sigh....scouting is difficult. Adel and I went to scout for a few guys that day in our school and what do we get....!? "No..." "No too shy" and one more worst "No...for school project right" Adel was like "So feirce!" she pulled my hand and we left the guy. SOME guys can be so rude and ungentlemanly sometimes.
Eyes are closing. Damn gonna take a cab later to meet Adel. Having lazy and sleepy bones.
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Monday, February 21, 2005
Do you think that God has a someone special for us? If so why are so many people left heartbroken so many times? So many times that some of them dont even wanna love anymore. Sad. Sometimes I wonder how we can be so cruel so inhuman that we discard how others feel. You know the saying "stick and stones will break your bones but words do no harm". Well, I totally disagree with that. Words can be even more hurting and cause an even deeper impact to the person. Nobody is innocent anymore. NEVER EVER judge a person cause looks really can be deceiving. Honestly. Sigh, I wish life is a dream. Enchanting and Alluring.
wishing life was a dream
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Sunday, February 20, 2005
Why is shocking to see something? Maybe it's unexpected. Maybe they dont expect that we will be. Yet I am scared to admit. Why is that? I feel so trapped. What is wrong with me? Sometimes I just wanna go. But sometimes I wanna stay. I hate secrets. I think they suck. I hate people gossiping in front of me. I hate whispers. I hate how we get older but yet some people doesnt get wiser. Sometimes I feel so frowny. How is it that close friends can be just torn apart in just a snap? How is that sometimes people dont see our good intentions? Why is that sometimes we feel so distant to the our friends? Even the closer ones. How is that just a stupid arguement can spoil things? Emotions are fragile I guess. Why is it that I dont wanna let them know but yet I feel otherwise. How is it that people can talk so much about others and yet they dont take a look at themselves. Why is it that some people dont express what they feel but yet they backstab you. Hypocrites. I hate them. I really hate them. Hate. Hate them.
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Saturday, February 19, 2005
Oodha & Me during cine production!
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Thursday, February 17, 2005
Heck, what am I doing online when I have tons of work. Sheesh. Silly Rachie Boo.
Emotional _ Diana DerGarmo Sometimes I feel like crying Laying down and dying That's when I need you Laughing's always easy, but sometimes I'm just scared you'll leave me That's when I feel emotional
You say I'm just impossible Totally unpredictable I'm just a girl get use to it No big deal You can't change me why would you try? I'm no angel but I can make you smile And that's the way it is That's just the way I am
Sometimes I feel like crying Laying down and dying That's when I need you Laughing's always easy, but sometimes I'm just scared you'll leave me That's when I feel emotional
Don't give up I won't hurt you Oh, sometimes I'm just a pain And that's the way it is That's just the way I am
That's when I need you Laughing's always easy but, sometimes I'm just scared you'll leave me That's when I feel oh yeah That's when I need you Sometimes I get emotional
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Monday, February 14, 2005
Well, lets see what I did. Went out, was nice today and enjoyed company. Thanks. Worried about work though. But then again, I can be such a worry wort at times. Nothing much to tell today. Just that I guess I am happily neutral about things.
My utmost prayers goes out to you.
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Sunday, February 06, 2005
Been going out with Ina the sotong <---- that's what I used to call her last time. One of my close friends....she used to be really blur but recently when I am out with her, it seems like I am the blur one! She says I suck at directions. Oh well, I guess I am just a forgetful person with a cuckoohead brain.
seeing red with Ina
I dont need alot of friends, just a few good ones who I cherish and whom cherish me.
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Thursday, February 03, 2005
I dont know why but I feel weird. Feeling sad perhaps? I miss you I guess.
My mum just gave a loud scream just now. Sort of venting her stress and anger towards "bastardo". Sigh....I dont know what to feel anymore. Tell me what to feel. She says she feel slightly better after screaming. Sometimes it is just little things which irks us. I realise that after a continuous habitual routine, people tend to take things for granted. And usually it always about us (the children) or money. I hate money. Why cant people just give and take. I really hate it. I wanna work so much but my mum doesnt want me to work late. She says if I go back to work it will add to her stress and worry box. I can take care of myself....I really can. As for my dad, I just sometimes wanna so much to hug him but maybe shy at times....hahaha so silly right!? Stupid idiotic Rachie. I love my mama.
My sister just came home, she was inspecting my eyes. She says why are they so off-white in colour. Asked me whether I've been smoking....hehz my sister is so silly. She is a nurse by the way....an excellent one in fact. Patient and loving. Unlike me, sometimes I wish so much to be more like her. Responsible and all that. I feel that I can be quite irresponsible at times. I love my sister. I love my brother too. I love my dad too too.
Listening to Usher right now. He makes me happy. Sounds retarded I know but I just listen to his CD and I feel happy I guess. Maroon 5 makes me happy too....and this other CD called "for the love of god".....its really nice.
Dha my close friend is also having some personal problems. Sigh....it hurts me to see her having problems. But it's these problems which makes us stronger both emotionally and physically. More emotionally actually.
quote of the moment "There is no remedy for love but to love more."
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Wednesday, February 02, 2005
Dont know why but feeling very "things are boring" attitude today. Hmm....but meeting becks made me a little happy at least. I have decided to do something. Not going to mention what but I think I shall pursue it if I still have the same thoughts. I feel confused.
Anyway, two people had a arguement today. Okay I wouldnt say an arguement maybe more of a small tiff. Well, let's hope this small thing wont injure their relationship. Sometimes, you want so much to talk to someone but you dont dare or rather you dont have the chance to. Or maybe it's the ego. Ego. Stupid freaking ego.
When I came home, my mum again was talking about "bastardo". Sigh...everyday there will be something about him. Well, almost everyday. Mum said "bastardo" accused her of throwing away his laptop's speakers and said something hurtful to her. Something about "then where do you think it is? In my backside is it...." Aiya I find it so silly but true it's hurtful when your husband or whoever is being rude to you. But nevertheless, mum is used to it I guess. I gave her my grassjelly cooling ginger to make her happy.
Becks was telling me about kenny and her. On how she still feels a little insecure about kenny's past. About how she will be happy if kenny goes back with his ex. I told her she was being silly as she is the one who kenny is lucky to have. But then on the other hand, I told her that it is also natural to feel insecure and stuff. It shows that she feels for kenny and that her emos are still active. Rather than feeling nothing at all. Becks was saying in a way she and I are almost alike. Well that's quite true. We ARE both scorpios. Scorpios, on how they have a "dont really bother" about relationship issues. But actually they do bother. Just that they dont want to think about stuff making them worried when sometimes maybe they have other more important stuffs to worry about. I dont know. Maybe I'm talking crap like I always do. Think before reacting Rachie....sigh....yup. I just hope that people can be really sincere in what they do and dont do things or say things if they dont mean it. As for me, I am trying to.
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My brain
To us aliens are scary, to them we are the scary ones
You found me :)
I think I laugh twice as loudly as you
I love scones and muffins
I love metaphysical stuffs
I love to travel
I love my job (at times)
And I love
