I cant concentrate. Thinking too much lately. I have been a real mood pain in the ass lately. Constantly frowning....sigh. I need to get work done.
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Thursday, March 17, 2005
i feel lost sometimes. i feel like so shit and like a lil dumb elephant. why is it that sometimes we spend so much on something to only feel bad about it when you see something else which is so much more nicer. feeling inferior. sigh, it is a feeling which we all cannot escape from.
done with my shooting. was pleased at first, but when i digitized it into the computer, found out that most of my colour suck and some scenes has no sound. shit. no shit. i am screwed. noone and nothing can make it better. sometimes when i am too concentrated on something, i forget the most lil important things.
went into a mini "scared" mood the other day. scared i couldnt get a good career. i dont know what i want to do. scared i cant get into any schools for a degree course. sigh.
rachie rachie, stop thinking too much and just work hard. alright alright i will.
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Sunday, March 06, 2005
Feelings fade after time. Is that really true?
Anyway, been kinda tired lately. Yesterday's filming at my house was really fun. Thanks to my funkyfied crew and powa actors. My crew practically loves my mama's bed. With the soft mattress and cool air....who wouldnt want to lie down on it!? My grandaunt was really amusing yesterday too. We were getting ready to shoot and tape was rolling when she started coughing....the whole crew started laughing and we had to re-shoot again. It was fun.
Though, I feel weird and like guilty today. I was trying to charge the batteries the whole night to the morning but somehow the freakin batts could not charge up fully properly. Anyway, so I woke up again at 930am to pass the batts to my friend then I put my dog in the room and I forgot to let him out. I just went straight to sleep again. My aunt usually comes around 10am and my dog will bark so we will open the door for her but because of ME fu*king me forgot to let my dog out, my aunt was waiting outside for dont know how long. When the household awoke, everyone was anxious wondering where grandaunt was. We called her place, but they said she left in the early morning. Sigh, thank god my mom called her place again at about 1pm, she was back home. She says that she waited outside for bout 1/2 hour, and she thought we all went out, so she went back home. I am really so sorry kitty. I feel like shit. Imagine travelling all the way back again. And her place aint near from ours. And she aint young. Sorry.
News really travels fast. I am easily hurt. I am easily paraniod. I dont want to feel like that.
Yesterday Rach L told me that I'm very blessed. Nobody told me that before, but I am glad that she told me so. Now I realise that I am indeed blessed. Apart from the occasional frowns, it is a small thing compared to others less fortunate than me.
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1:56 PM
My brain
To us aliens are scary, to them we are the scary ones
You found me :)
I think I laugh twice as loudly as you
I love scones and muffins
I love metaphysical stuffs
I love to travel
I love my job (at times)
And I love
