Tuesday, December 28, 2004
I learn new things about myself everyday. Unravell new mysteries about myself. A Scorpio I am. Truely said. Today was a quiet day for me perhaps? Went to MPH to see some astrology books. The stuff I read was really quite accurate. About me a Scorpio that is. Been interested in all these Metaphysical Studies since I was about 14 yrs old....
Hmm....Found it strange when I received a sms from "Peanut". He asked me whether I was alright today as I seem rather lonely. Well sometimes I do feel lonely. Really lonely. But then again who dosent feel that way right? I have a handful of close friends whom I know will definately will be there for me in a blink of an eye. My emotions tested them just a few days ago when I was in one of my low points. I cried on Christmas Eve....pathetic I know. But they comforted me and really showed what I wanted to receive....Love and Warmth. I find myself being more independent as I journey through my life. It is great to have someone by your side but in reality you cannot have that. People always say that my mind is constantly filled with thoughts. I am not so sure about that but which person isnt thinking all the time? Even when you think that your mind is blank, subconsciously your mind is sure to be thinking of something.
subconscious - the part of your mind that has thoughts and feelings you do not know about; UNCONSCIOUS
Anyway, sometimes I feel a little irritated when a someone keeps on saying the same things to me. I know sometimes they mean well and they dont know that I dont really like it....but sometimes it comes to a point when the way they say it sounds a little sacarstic. Well maybe its me being too sensitive. I am known to be a sensitive person. Some of my friends think they know me, but sometimes I feel not many people really know me well. I mean besides from my close friends. Sometimes I feel like I am a romance poet in a nutshell. Yet sometimes I can feel like a crazed retard who dreams in a nuthshell. I have no idea what I mean but nevermind.
Dreamer unravelled
as in darkness,
like light.
as in rain,
like dirt.
as in corners,
like cats.
as in spiders,
like webs.
what is that dances in between the lights?
what is it that scrambles at night?
what is it she weaves,
the unraveller of night and dreams?
what does she see?
as in notebooks,
like words.
as in beads,
like yarn.
as in corners,
like cats.
as in spiders,
like webs.
patterns like night
frayed dreams
what do you see?
what do you see?
what do you see,
in mine?
what does she see?
- Poem by Syed Sana Rahman
I really like this poem alot. It is also being made into a song sung by Vanessa Fernandez. It's pure beauty. Well I'm feeling a little spiritual now....hehz....maybe I shall go and get in touch with my intuitive side.
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