Time passes so fast. Attachment is just a day away. I cant wait to work and just do my best. I guess being away from school for a while is a good thing.
I have to make my feelings known. My presentation did not go well at all. In fact, it was horrible. One of the worst point in school during my life. Honestly, I have always been a good student. Getting average grades and doing my job. As the editor and soundman, I dubbed almost all the voices and made an effort to put it in the footage. In return, Mr James says it wasnt good. I did editing every day from 930am to 545pm. Effort was not recognise because it was not even completed on the day of the presentation.
Disappointed. Sigh. I feel lost and stabbed? I dont know whether it is the right word to use but that's how I am feeling. Firstly, I never wanted to be in the same group as my partner. He even asked if he could be put into another group in the beginning of FYPJ because it's not really a good idea to work with your partner. I do admit that we have quarrels and our personal feelings got into work, but never did I once not do my part as a soundman or crew member. Sometimes these feelings are inevitible. I understand that my group members feel uncomfortable when a couple is in the group but I hope you understand that we never wanted to be in the same group at all. I feel that group members should tell each other how they feel about a situation whether they are unhappy etc...and maybe a resolution can be done for the better of the group. I know this is pure work and they are just expressing how they feel, and maybe I am sensitive but I guess that I am being sensitive only because , you are close to me.
Shooting at Gotham Penthouse was actually more fun than other shoots. Probably because of the music and crowd. Rach L told me that we should both do well for our modules in order for our grades to improve. Well, I have been really trying my best each and every time. I guess I get so hungry sometimes that I really wanna do more that sometimes I just get to negative in my own thinking that I am doing nothing. I guess this bad character in me has to go. It is pissing people off.
I guess as we grow older people tend to mature. Hope I will mature more day by day. And before I know it, after my attachment, I may become a NEW woman! Argh, who am I kidding right?
Hypocrites. What do you think about them? Talking good to two sides then saying bad about another.
I always believe that you should help someone who needs help if you can do so. I have always tried to help people when I can, but where is my help when I need some? Where is the comfort that I want? Other than my confidant, where is the rest? Being misunderstood is a sad thing. Pandy should know best. Honestly. I am not saying this just because I am his partner. But honestly, how can someone talk so much crap about someone they dont really know well enough. That happened to me before. A bunch of students did some online poll thing about me about 6 yrs ago. Long time ago I know, but I will never ever forget it. They wanted people to vote for my friend and I cause we were unfriendly and unpretty etc...all the nasty things you can think of. Childish "friends" I have. They dont understand - "because you dont really smile dosent make you unfriendly" " because you stick to your same friends dosent make you proud". Honestly, I was really hurt and upset (to a 14 yr old teenager trying to fit in) at that point but thank GOD for my angel Becky, she has always stood by me and kinda told them off like I said above, "how can they talk crap about you if they hardly know you."
I guess in life you will meet all sorts of people. The ones who only shows their true emotions to their love ones and not their friends. The ones who are nice and pals with you but they turn around and talk about how you dislike them. The ones who are simply plain nice to everyone. The ones who are crazy and seem happy all the time but in fact they arent happy at all. The ones who get so sensitive over small issues because everythings around them matters alot to them. I could go on about so much more different people. It seems like sometimes being yourself isnt good enough anymore.
I wanna do my best get my diploma and do my best again at another path.
"two tails and a storyboard"
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My brain
To us aliens are scary, to them we are the scary ones
You found me :)
I think I laugh twice as loudly as you
I love scones and muffins
I love metaphysical stuffs
I love to travel
I love my job (at times)
And I love
